In A Course in Miracles it says :
"To believe a Son of God ( uh oh I said God better run!) is sick is to worship the same idol he does. God
created love, not idolatry. All forms of idolatry are caricatures of creation,
taught by sick minds too divided to know that creation shares power and
never usurps it. Sickness is idolatry, because it is the belief that power can
be taken from you. Yet this is impossible, because you are part of God,
Who is all power. A sick god must be an idol, made in the image of what its
maker thinks he is. And that is exactly what the ego does perceive in a Son
of God; a sick god, self-created, self-sufficient, very vicious and very
vulnerable. Is this the idol you would worship? Is this the image you would
be vigilant to save? "
When I had acne I had to read up on powerful books like this because acne was my God back then and not to mention I had be talked down from a bridge once a week. Acne almost seems proof that the church idea of God doesn't all together. I know I had my doubts." Why would I believe in God? Look at me!" I would say. I know so cliche. I guess I wanted to believe in something so I could have someone to blame because the specialists sure were idiots. If it were up to them I still be dealing with acne 10 years later.
Acne was like I was dealing with a demon or Freddy Krueger or something LOL. Except I didn't live on Elm St I lived on Shea Blvd. Either way it was haunting. Everyday another zit was an extra weight on my shoulders. How are you supposed to deal with the new ones when your dealing with ones from previous week or what have you? Then you feel the need to come up with some kind of strategy about getting through your day to avoid people or situations:
Don't go to 2 second period because Lindsey Baker sits next to you who is really hot and um ya...Don't go to walgreens for neutragena so and so works there and will most likely have to ring you up and the lighting is really bad so they might see you and it will be embarrassing."
That was sometimes the nightmare itself. Feeling like you have been found out or that you really are what you think you are. You know when the situation seemed to be your worst fears coming true. It was days like this I would have rather just dealt with Freddy Krueger. Maybe he could help pop some of these things with his claws haha.
Anyway it was this crap that I had to deal with that made me realize that a cleanser isn't going to help me. How could it? There were times I would clear up for a day but I thought I still had a face full because the fear was so deep ingrained.
I mean already had heard about the accutane nightmares, what would have happened to me if got on that at such a low in my life? I was starting to become conscious of really bad habits that I knew just were not the "normal me". I guess I was fortunate enough to have a part of me knowing after a while that this was all happening for a reason.
That reason being I needed to be aware that acne was there because I was so resentful towards acne, towards myself and that there was very little I liked about me. It was starting to snowball and consume me. It wasn't the "right regimen" that kept me from healing because the body follows the mind. It was the BELIEF of what acne really was that I couldn't over come; the ideas of what I thought acne "did to me" that had to be broken down. Any regimen could work if you believed it would. You can rub poop on your face and have the same results; I should know... I tried it Lol jk. The issue is why would you want to rely on someone or something outside of you to fix your problems. Thats like saying I'll be happy when someone says I can be happy. I don't know about anyone else but 10 years was enough for me to put happiness off.
My name is Robert, and I battled acne for 10 years. After reading many books on healing and metaphysics, I eventually gave up because I could not find the answers I needed the way I needed to see it. I finally said to myself " I don't care if this stays or goes; I'm done trying to fix this damn acne. Its not my job." One day in the midst of this surrendering, someone made an unbiased comment and I finally could see how I was creating acne. It was like staring at one of those 3d pictures at the mall except it took 10 years. When I could see what I was doing the resistance, the dread, and doomed feeling from acne was gone right then and gone from my face in a few days. I finally understood what all the books were saying about forgiveness and how are thoughts create. Like I said before the body follows when there is peace in the mind. (This why a paper cut heals faster than your acne.)
Theres another way to see everything and its a choice. Acne is once piece of the puzzle to your whole being and when you have it its like choosing to believe that you are just that one piece instead of something bigger. If you have an hour, want to feel different, see something bigger, and want to be done with acne and all the things associated with it please contact me.
" You are what you insist..."
When I had acne I had to read up on powerful books like this because acne was my God back then and not to mention I had be talked down from a bridge once a week. Acne almost seems proof that the church idea of God doesn't all together. I know I had my doubts." Why would I believe in God? Look at me!" I would say. I know so cliche. I guess I wanted to believe in something so I could have someone to blame because the specialists sure were idiots. If it were up to them I still be dealing with acne 10 years later.
Acne was like I was dealing with a demon or Freddy Krueger or something LOL. Except I didn't live on Elm St I lived on Shea Blvd. Either way it was haunting. Everyday another zit was an extra weight on my shoulders. How are you supposed to deal with the new ones when your dealing with ones from previous week or what have you? Then you feel the need to come up with some kind of strategy about getting through your day to avoid people or situations:
Don't go to 2 second period because Lindsey Baker sits next to you who is really hot and um ya...Don't go to walgreens for neutragena so and so works there and will most likely have to ring you up and the lighting is really bad so they might see you and it will be embarrassing."
That was sometimes the nightmare itself. Feeling like you have been found out or that you really are what you think you are. You know when the situation seemed to be your worst fears coming true. It was days like this I would have rather just dealt with Freddy Krueger. Maybe he could help pop some of these things with his claws haha.
Anyway it was this crap that I had to deal with that made me realize that a cleanser isn't going to help me. How could it? There were times I would clear up for a day but I thought I still had a face full because the fear was so deep ingrained.
I mean already had heard about the accutane nightmares, what would have happened to me if got on that at such a low in my life? I was starting to become conscious of really bad habits that I knew just were not the "normal me". I guess I was fortunate enough to have a part of me knowing after a while that this was all happening for a reason.
That reason being I needed to be aware that acne was there because I was so resentful towards acne, towards myself and that there was very little I liked about me. It was starting to snowball and consume me. It wasn't the "right regimen" that kept me from healing because the body follows the mind. It was the BELIEF of what acne really was that I couldn't over come; the ideas of what I thought acne "did to me" that had to be broken down. Any regimen could work if you believed it would. You can rub poop on your face and have the same results; I should know... I tried it Lol jk. The issue is why would you want to rely on someone or something outside of you to fix your problems. Thats like saying I'll be happy when someone says I can be happy. I don't know about anyone else but 10 years was enough for me to put happiness off.
My name is Robert, and I battled acne for 10 years. After reading many books on healing and metaphysics, I eventually gave up because I could not find the answers I needed the way I needed to see it. I finally said to myself " I don't care if this stays or goes; I'm done trying to fix this damn acne. Its not my job." One day in the midst of this surrendering, someone made an unbiased comment and I finally could see how I was creating acne. It was like staring at one of those 3d pictures at the mall except it took 10 years. When I could see what I was doing the resistance, the dread, and doomed feeling from acne was gone right then and gone from my face in a few days. I finally understood what all the books were saying about forgiveness and how are thoughts create. Like I said before the body follows when there is peace in the mind. (This why a paper cut heals faster than your acne.)
Theres another way to see everything and its a choice. Acne is once piece of the puzzle to your whole being and when you have it its like choosing to believe that you are just that one piece instead of something bigger. If you have an hour, want to feel different, see something bigger, and want to be done with acne and all the things associated with it please contact me.
" You are what you insist..."
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